15 days out from stepping on stage.

im close. real close. am still working on my posing routine - currently nailing down the mandatories, but finding time when i have energy outside of the cardio and exercise is difficult. especially with all the other things i am working on.

a quick update - my conditioning is on point and i wanted to see how i would fill out for the show so yesterday i made it a carb load day - ended up eating 1,000 carbs in pancakces and a 16" large meat lovers pizza lol. thing is, sometimes when i avoid these things for a long time (as i have the past 3 months) i can tolerate them, but yesterday i really couldnt. i was eating and eating, but my dig symptoms came back - bloating , conspitation, the hives on my skin on and off, flushing, dizzyness, it was crazy. but damn it tatsed good! i was getting hungrier and hungrier all day as i kept eating. it put me in a euphoric state even though my dig tract was screaming. i know now that carbing up with pancakes or fat loading with pizza is not a good option for the show. i am going to try making my own granola with rolled oats, maple syryup, raisens, and brown rice flour, but primarily i will stick with white rice, which in the past 2 shows ive only used salt free rice cakes. im going to do it a bit different this time so i can fill out more.

my legs were all messed up today from training quads yesterday, and pain in knees, ankles, hips and lower back told me it was not smart to hit hams today. so i stuck with cardio, calves and abs this morning and am now getting ready to go hit shoulders and do another hour of cardio.

tom morn i plan on hiting hamstrings and tom evening i plan on doing biceps. cardio after both sessions. i got alot of weight to lose to get down to make middleweights.

i was 187 before the carb up - this morning i was 196. lol. a light heavy. WOW. my intuition is telling me that is going to slip off over the next three days and i should be lower than 187, around 185 and lose about a lb a day until the weigh ins and will have to restrict water early most likely to make weight, in which the class tops out at 176.25. its really funny that this is happening because every show ive done so far, which has only been 2 really, i have just barely made weight. my 1st, about 2 years ago at this point, i weighed in at 154.25 which is the top of the lighteights, god i had just made it. then this psat december i weighed in at 162 and the class topped at 165. i underestimated the water weight id be losing though and cut water early for that too. just 2 days before i was 167 in the morning and concerned lol.

alright guys ill keep u posted - i know everything is like all over the place - i am just getting started with this blogging. its format will develop over time.

GOTTA GO HIT THE WEIGHTS BABY TIME TO FOCUS TO CHALLENGE MYSELF TO FOCUS MORE AND MORE. TO FEEL EACH MOMENT OF EACH REP, CONTRACTION, SQUEEZE, RESIST, PAUSE, FLEX, EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!

Focus on Calvies, and rest and recouperation.

Today was an incredable day. as the days seem to be. i am so fortunate to be able to have a body as i do with a mindset as i do. my awareness leads me into situations that guide me to success.

i focused on my caves this morning - i decided i will make them grow.

i have been unsure whether or not i wanted to pour some of the oz of muscle i will fill out my class with into my calves, and at this point i decided i would like to. i want the poses from the rear to have calves that round out then go into tight hams, flaring quads, and a tight ripped wide back with balanced shoulders, beautiful sweeping triceps and bicep peaks. DAMN!

so those calves i want to make more round. and as usual every training session is unique. it is planned, but intuitive and changes during based in my feelings and intuitions. my calves tell me what they need. the session lasted about 30 minutes, then i did walking cardio for 45 mins keeping my heart rate at 120bpm, i have become more and more conditioned since i started my cardio and now i have to use a 2.0incline and 2.7speed on the treadmill to maintain that heart rate. initially i only needed a 0.0 incline and 2.0 speed! lol.

anyway, i stayed on top of everything, had alot of tasks to take care, avoided getting run over by someone while i was running errands, and picked up plenty of salmon, orange roughy, tilapia , chiken breast, and steak for the week. god i would eat that shit raw if it was good for me.

then i did yoga this evening for recouperative purposes as well as aiding in isometric contractions (aka benefiting posing) and creating a change of stimulus for my muscles to adapt to. i was able to experience some releases in my knees, wrists, biceps, lower back, upper back, and center back that leave me now feeling much more recouperated, functional, and whole. i am so excited for my quad working upcoming in 2 days. i delayed it a day due to knee distress from the accident getting reactivated from my last insane leg workout 6 days ago! it takes this long for my legs to recouperat sometimes when i train them INSANE.

also i hit back yesterday and the heavy barbell rows, cable rows, and dumbell rows, put stress on them. right now is a delicate time. 20 days out from the show one has to balance going for training intensity and still developing (if planned right, as i believe one should grow into a show) with not getting an injury and maintaining ones structural integrity.

my aimless rambles will turn into more organized thought as i develop my blog, i promise. its alot at once, i know, but i have so many things goin on in my head all the time. i have journals and journals full of the stuff. i just want to share it with people because it can dramatically help improve peoples success.

well, i will update tomorrow, we shall see what it brings!

PEACE- signing out for now

~The BlahutBuilder